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Pursuing Peace For My Beloved

 Pure Land Buddhist Art, China. 

The concept of love is simple.
Love is pure and beautiful.
When people truly love you, 
they care about you, 
they want you to be happy.

The love of my life abruptly left this world in an accident,
He left me widowed, 
alone in the world,
I feel
shattered / broken / empty / lonely / sad
He is
the love of my life/
the oxygen to my lungs/
the pumping of my heart/
the neurons to my brain

I want to 
hurl myself off the cliff, 
fall into the ocean,
be carried away into the deep currents
floating amongst sea plankton, anemones, fishes, dolphins.

But I know that's not what my beloved wants for me
He's still here,
watching over me / loving me,
He's still alive,
in another form / in another world.
I feel him desperately trying to reach out to me,
but he can't speak to me, I can't see him,
I can only close my eyes, talk to him
knowing he's there on the other side, listening to me
whilst wishing he could hold me, comfort me.

Oh my beloved
How I miss you so, 
How I yearn to see you one more time. 

I know that for my beloved, 
I must be strong, remain steadfast
I must continue onto the Marga 
while still breathing in the physical form,
I must seek the light,
Pursuing peace for my beloved
So he could live in peace in the other world,
Knowing I'm taking care of myself, 
Not having to worry anymore.

The concept of love is simple, 
Love is pure and beautiful,
When you truly love someone, 
you allow them to be free, 
so they could be happy.