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One Year Closing Ceremony [Dia de Los Muertos 2017]

[Beautiful Aztec dancer. Credits unknown]
I've struggled emotionally since I lost my spouse and soulmate in a car accident on June 24, 2016. It has been a time of immense sorrow and grieving. So many times I've contemplated throwing myself off a bridge because I couldn't bear the pain. Truth is, I was a very lonely, angry, bitter person my entire life until I met Alberto and fell in love with him. He was a beautiful, gentle soul with a huge heart and a smile that would lit up the whole room. I felt freakin happy with him and I even thanked Allah many times for bringing him to me. His sudden death shattered my world and turned my life upside down.
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Travels in China: Beijing

天壇Temple of Heaven, Beijing, China. Built in 1406-1420 CE during the Ming Dynasty
I came back from China about a week ago after having spent 14 days absorbing Chinese culture and society. First I flew to Beijing where I spent a whole week, afterward I went to Shanghai where I spent another week in.

Bollywood! Horror! Fashion! Lookbook Video

In honor of Halloween, a holiday I very much enjoy, I decided to make a lookbook video. For months, I've watched lookbook videos on youtube. I thought that peopled looked too somber in lookbook videos, taking themselves too seriously. So I wanted to make a parody lookbook video showcasing South Asian / Indian fashion, by dressing up as five scary / horror creatures in Indian / Hindu mythology. I also have closed captioning (in English and Spanish) for voice over and sound effects. Enjoy.



Pursuing Peace For My Beloved

 Pure Land Buddhist Art, China. 
The concept of love is simple.
Love is pure and beautiful.
When people truly love you, 
they care about you, 
they want you to be happy.

The love of my life abruptly left this world in an accident,
He left me widowed, 
alone in the world,
I feel
shattered / broken / empty / lonely / sad
He is
the love of my life/
the oxygen to my lungs/
the pumping of my heart/
the neurons to my brain

I want to 
hurl myself off the cliff, 
fall into the ocean,
be carried away into the deep currents
floating amongst sea plankton, anemones, fishes, dolphins.

But I know that's not what my beloved wants for me
He's still here,
watching over me / loving me,
He's still alive,
in another form / in another world.
I feel him desperately trying to reach out to me,
but he can't speak to me, I can't see him,
I can only close my eyes, talk to him
knowing he's there on the other side, listening to me
whilst wishing he could hold me, comfort me.

Oh my beloved
How I miss you so, 
How I ye…

Sabina England interviews Grant Cameron, UFO researcher

I interviewed a well-known UFO researcher, lecturer and writer, Grant Cameron, and we discussed his new forthcoming book about Charlie Red Star, a series of UFO sightings in Manitoba, Canada in 1975 and 1976. We discussed various topics which you may find interesting. This is the first of a series of interviews I plan to conduct with various ufologists, researchers, and writers. So stay tuned and watch out for more interviews in the future.

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The Lotus of Bodhi

The Blue Tara (Tibetan Buddhist art)
Apsaras fleeting around the clouds,
Whispering chants fade away in the wind, 
Seated at the tree, 
underneath low branches of swaying leaves, 
the mind opens,
the lotus blooms,
the fragrance sweetens the air,
the sangha swells with love,
as the Buddha dwells in her inner calm.